My Own World

Man, I have been dreaming way too much lately.

Last night I dreamt that a gang managed to pick my lock, opened my door, grabbed the keys, and run. I managed to stop the 4 from getting into the house, but I couldn't stop the little 10 year old toerag from running away with my keys. Then my story was the local paper, not naming names just that a house in my village was broken into. The strangest thing was, that I was out in the village community and talking with others, and once they knew it was me, they all rallied round!

Then the night before I dreamt that I'd left my mobile phone and handbag at a service station on my way back from Birmingham. But then I already had that 'panic' when I actually did think I left my handbag in the ladies toilets at the last stop.

The night before that I did have a nice dream though. I dreamt Karl and I were getting married, only for the first time ever in one of my wedding dreams we were actually saying the vows and exchanging rings.

It's my birthday tomorrow!

Mood: Chipper

Well, Karl and I went out last night (our first night out this year) to his Dad's 60th birthday party. It was also an opportunity for me to meet his partner, and for both Karl and I to meet her family.

In about the first hour, Father-in-law made his birthday speech. It was here that he announced his engagement (although Karl and I had prior warning about 10mins beforehand). Father-in-law is really happy, the happiest I've known him since I've known him (almost 6 years now). The wedding's going to be in 12 weeks time, so Karl's going to be step-brother to 7, step-uncle to 24, and step-great uncle to 13. That'll make me all but a step-great auntie before I'm 25. I'M TOO YOUNG! (As a side note, there goes our expectations for a small wedding when Karl and I do finally get hitched!).

After the speech we had food. There was a DJ there and Karl kept asking me to teach him how to dance. I'd planned to get him on the dance floor for a slow dance, just to show him actually there doesn't have to be much to it. Anyway the DJ then put on some ballroom music, a waltz. So Karl only went and asked me to teach him the waltz! Well I'll tell you something now, I know how to do the waltz when I'm dancing with Mum, and she's leading me! Instead, I had to try and lead Karl. It only took one whole song to realise that one had to stay within the beat given in the music, and one couldn't go as slow as one would have preferred!

Anyway by the end of the second song (when I gave up because my legs hurt from leading!) we had an admittance from Karl that he thoroughly enjoyed the bit of ballroom dancing, and that if we get better that we might actually go for lessons! I have always wanted to do ballroom dancing since a young girl, and I never thought I'd hear Karl saying he'd want to do it too! I want us to be better already!

It was such a great night, we had so much fun. Karl said to me both last night and today that he was proud to have me there as his fiancée and that he was so happy that I was able to go. I'm just glad I was able to go, have fun, and do my man proud.

I got to bed at 4:30am in the end, but I just couldn't sleep. My body was wanting sleep, but my brain was buzzing. Today I feel weird. My brain is still not tired, my body aches and my eyes want to be closed, but I don't feel as knackered as I know I should. Though I have washing up I need to do but I really don't want to as I'm so achy.

Mood: Achy

Well Nim found out something, which I thought was really quite interesting. It's where the word 'Serendipity' originates from. Cool!

Mood: Nerdy

I've just had a phone call from my specialist. Test results show I'm still harbouring an infection that was found in April, despite numerous treatments. I have to go through yet another treatment.

When will this all end? All I want to do is get better!

Mood: Depressed

Karl and I went out yesterday afternoon. It was so nice! We went to the Post Office first, so I could post my assignment to my German tutor, then to Tesco so we could both get a few bits. Then we decided to go to Meltham, well just past Meltham and on to the Peak District, where we had some food while watching the sunset. It was so pretty! I wish I'd had my camera with me.

I'm feeling shattered now, and will aim to get a really early night tonight, but oh it was so worth it. I've not felt well enough to have a day like that in such a long time. Hopefully I'll continue to get better and be able to live a bit of a normal life.

Mood: Exhausted

Sezzy says: hello Karl

Karloz says: hello my special princess


Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!

Mood: Loved

OK I ring up my Gran today, as I'm feeling well enough to go round to see her, and figure she'd love to see me as she hasn't seen me since July.

Me: "Hi Gran, it's Sezzy here. I just phoned to see if you were in and wanted to see me today?"

Gran: "Oh right, will you walk?"

Me: "No, I'll get a taxi, I can't walk that far." [She lives about a mile away by foot]

Gran: "Oh well that seems a bit much just to come here. Why don't you come when your Dad comes [on Sunday]?"

Me: "It's ok, I'm used to getting taxis. I just thought you'd like to see me."

Gran: "I would, but it just seems a bit much. Oh and I'll have to have dinner a bit later."

Me: "What time do you have dinner?"

Gran: "5pm."

Me: "Well I'll be gone by then."

Gran: "I'm busy, I'm in the middle of cleaning my home, and I have to go to the library." [her library day is Thursday!]

Me: "Oh OK. Bye then."

OK I know I've never thought an awful lot of her before, because she has her favourites, and I'm not one of them (nor is Dad, her 2nd son!), but she knew I wanted to do my family tree, and I stupidly thought she'd actually think a little bit more of me for doing it. I'll say now though that I wasn't actually doing it or anything in particular to get in favour with her, but I was at least making an effort still as she is 91 now.

I told my dad briefly by text, I think he's going to have strong words with her tonight if I know my Dad. I'm definitely not going on Sunday to see her now though, I'll go see my best mate instead. Sod her. It's sad really because she's my last surviving grandparent, and it would have been nice to have got on with her.

Oh well.

Mood: Angry

Well I didn't think I'd manage it, but I did! I managed a whole day out at my sister's graduation ceremony yesterday.

The day started at 8am, when I had to get up, get breakfasted, and get ready to be out at 11am.

I am sporting my new dress, cardi, shoes, hair-do and coat (wow almost a new person )

Anyway, we headed out to Cambridge to my sister's graduation ceremony. My sister got robed up and we had our photos taken at the Guild Hall (I'll scan a copy in as soon as they come through), then we made the very short walk (ME short in fact!) to the Corn Exchange, where the ceremony was to be held.

After the ceremony it was back to Jin's Uni, Anglia Ruskin University (was Anglia Polytechnic University until a few months ago). There were refreshments there, but I had my favourite choccy and mineral water which I took along with me. We hooked up with Jin's friend's family too at this point.

Then after that we (my family and Jin's friend's family) made our way to a lovely pub nearby, where we were in a smoke free area which really was smoke free! And the food was perfect too, totally Sezzy-friendly. Yummy!

We made it back home at 11pm, and boy I was shattered! But I had such a lovely time.

Mood: Mellow

Well the storage heaters are in, but I'm still cold! They're not going to be connected up until NPower get their bums round here and put in the new electric meter in on 2nd Nov.

The day started at 8am with the men arriving too - 1 hour before I was told they would! I'd only just woken up, so I'm glad Mum was around to handle everything. Why does the world start work so early? It's not funny!

Anyway I'm shattered after all that work.

Mood: Sleepy

I saw Karl today, for 3.5 hours! Fab! I'd gone round to sign something for him, so only expected to be there for a short while, half an hour at the most. His dad was there too, so it was nice to see him. After about an hour of me being there Karl phoned my Mum (who's staying with me right now as she's going to help out when all the work's done) and invited her round.

It was so fab to go round there, and feeling a heap better than I did last time I went round there to visit for a couple of hours. I really hope after all the work and everything's done that Karl and I can spend some proper time together.

Mood: Silly